Monday, May 07, 2007

A Suffering Family


PLEASE NOTE: Future updates about Gabriel and his family may be found here.
A few bright spots in the lives of the Sullivan family since I last wrote. Gabriel had the spinal tap, and by God's grace no cancer cells were found in his spinal fluid. They have started chemo. And two of Gabriel's big brothers, Michael and Joshua, received Confirmation and First Communion. Gabriel received the Anointing of the Sick. "Three of my sons received sacraments this week. What blessings amongst the turmoil."

Not all the news is good, of course. As is often the case, the disease is every bit as hard on his parent as it is on little Gabriel. Tom writes:

"...when things are quiet, Gabriel just wants mommy to lay with him and comfort him, and Carol wraps her arms around him and whispers those motherly words of love that only a mother can. But, as soon as the doctors and nurses come in, he yells and cries for daddy and won't stop until I grab and hold him. This quiets him some but not completely. He is expecting me to protect him from the fear and pain he thinks is coming, but I am helpless to meet his expectations and my heart feels like it is being ripped out of my chest.

"My intellect tells me that stopping the pain is not in his best interest if he is to survive, but the heart of a warrior I have as his father and protector cries out in rage to stop his pain and fend off those behind
administering that pain. However, deep into the night as I sit here in this chair meditating on the silhouette of my wife and child lying on the hospital bed and I cry out in the depths of my soul, 'God stop the pain that has come upon me and my family ... and take it away.'

"I hear Him in my spirit say to me, 'Tom, you are acting with me as your Father, the same way Gabriel is acting with you as his father, so trust in me with the same trust you want Gabriel to have in you.'

With that, I surrender the passions of a warrior, and embrace the calming whispers of my Father who art in Heaven, knowing that when the sun rises in the morning, I must once again don the armor of a fatherly warrior..."

Thank you for your continued prayers for the Sullivans.

4 comments:

Veritas said...

Such serene thoughts.My prayers are with you.

Christine Trollinger said...

Praying for Gabriel and all. God has a plan, even if we do not understand it. Gabriel is His child and He will never forsake him, nor your family.

God Bless and may He hold you close to His wounded heart in all the trials you must undergo.

JMJ,
Christine

elena maria vidal said...

I am praying so hard for this dear little boy.

Anonymous said...

Praying here, too. A few years ago, I spiritually adopted an unknown child at risk of not making it into the world. I "named" him Gabriel and prayed for him and his family each day for 9 months, and although this likely isn't him, it is, now. I'll remember him and his family every day. Oh, how hard is life sometimes.